October 11th, 2009 (10:22 pm)
Where I be:
Chez Clone
I'm feelin': hopeful
I look at the moleskin fabric in my hands and rub the butter-smooth surface. If only I could get it right. If only I could figure out what to do to make it work the way I want. I’ve studied so much about happiness, I got happiness pukin’ outta my ears. Only the facts, that is. Only the facts.
My clone…my clone’s in a real bad place at the mo. Never seen ‘im so down and hurt and desparin. I wanna wrap ‘im up in happiness, but I can’t get the Comforter right. I been tryin for months on end, on all my sleepless nights, but no luck. Well, marginal luck, but we want the whole page.
I’m sleepless again, but not for the nightmares like it was for so long. I am upset, but it’s about Fredgie. I’m worried. I remember how tough it was with Angie, and that was certainly understandable, since we was friends with ‘er for so long. We were mates all those years, teammates, above that. So yeah, it was a bit tough with her.
I look out through the fire from the secret nook in the back o the fireplace. Clone’s asleep in his cot, beside my empty one. I didn’t want him to be alone. We clones don’t do well alone. We’ve always had somebody around. We find it comforting. But I can’t hug him every livin minute. I may want to, but I can’t. We got work to do, businesses to run. But I’ll be here for him as much as I possibly can, and maybe even give ‘im a little happiness he can snuggle up with when he’s alone (iffin, say, I gotta use the loo).
I lift the bag o’ herbs and sniff at it. I soaked these bad boys in potions and solutions, so’s the smell’s real understated, but the effect of it (think they call it aromatherapy) is real intensified. It’s only part o’ what I did to the Comforter…well, haven’t quite done that yet, gonna do it now. But put a sorta modified cheerin charm on the moleskin and treated the fabric with some little solution I made when I was working on tryin to concentrate on the qualities o chocolate. It brings a boost to your spirits after an attack from a dementor. Thought I might give it a try for my happy blanket.
I use a slow spell to stretch out the herb bag, makin it stretch into a long noodle of a container. Want the herbs in there as even and unbulgy as possible. Once I got that done, I reach down for the rotten-tomato shaped pincushion. I turn myself so’s I’m facin outside the room to look at my clone, and as I fold over the unfinished edge of the blanket and wrap it around the now-spaghetti-thin sachet, I think back to the day when Fredgie came home…looking how I never wanted to ever see him. Heartbroken.